Analog Sh!t: The Common Sense Hustle

Analogue Sh*t: The Common Sense Hustle

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

|full moon|

In hindsight, the first, or last, entry here was more, or less, a good, or bad character sketch of my personality.
That said, let me give you a clearer picture about the type of person i am, sans the emo overload (or not).

I just got off of the phone with a football player for west virginia. he became frustrated after time and time again of me telling him "it doesn't matter if i'm a virgin or not because that part of my life obviously won't concern you".
i think he just hung up on me
he asked me if i'm going to be like "this" all of the time?
"what is this?" i said
"man you're just really sarcastic and i don't usually deal with girls like that"
"oh, that's because the art of sarcasm usually requires people to have brains, you've probably been dealing with girls without them."
"man you wild yo...are you mixed with something?"
"no"
"so you're just pure black?"
"yes...why"
"man you actin real white right now."

i hope he really hung up on me.

That just sums up my experiences in this place. I'm staying with my sister in Prince George's County Md. this summer. The sad part about it all, is that this place is better than home.
But what a peculiar place it is. The Maryland girls dress like harajuku girls, people sell bootlegged cds with their babies in arm, and I have yet to find an intelligent soul here.
The other day i went grocery shopping and passed out in a spanish grocery store. Mind you, this wasn't even the original store I went grocery shopping in. Just another black girl caught of in the mix.

I've been home since then (in Virginia). Lame parties and then the club. One of my best friends Markita left for school, so going back now would be lame.
It's weird to see dynamics change on account of people.

Right now I feel myself beginning to settle into some drastic mood. It is not that things are not going the way that I want them to...rather it seems as things are not going at all.
I'm at a life plateau right now: love, money, sex, friendships everything on one level playing field.
Some people kill for that you know?
But do you know how much I want to kill myself right now? Well, not in the literal sense. But Jesus, can I get something to shake up my life a bit?
More than likely, school will do the trick, but that's a good month away.

Whoever met a teenager with no passion?
Great direction, but not passion.
Not that i'm not passionate about things
but right now there is no passion in my life. You understand?
I'm a passionless passionate person.
The new triple p...eff the platinum pied pipers.

I'm going to drive mysself crazy soon.
but it's a full moon, so lunacy appears to be a fitting option right now.

-m.

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