Analog Sh!t: The Common Sense Hustle

Analogue Sh*t: The Common Sense Hustle

Saturday, November 12, 2005

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two people who love stability but dislike the rigidity of monogamy are equally met.
she's been trained to analyze
and him to reject it.
and they found a common understanding in an idea
and way of life,
in a feeling
maybe not much else?
who can tell.

i hate the country for making me so careful.
i hate the time on my hands for making me so careful. because sometimes inhibition is needed just as much a watchful eye is.

HE must come to understand (and i know he'll say that he has) that these things are my best friends, and have been, and it's hard to throw them away.
and it's just as scary to throw them away on account of one person.

i'm tearing myself down and wondering if i'm really tearing myself down. it sure feels like it. there's this little feeling inside, and it sounds weird, but every time there's something it just feels like a scrape. And i've been acting with that scrape in mind, and it's worked for me.
But now not so much so.

Dear you, I cannot possibly love in under these conditions. Just look at them. Everything moves too much.
And I too yearn for the constant, but that can get us into just as much trouble.

This is all blanketed and I'm sorry
there are so many messages to so many people I'm trying to get out.

I love the men that have already learned to love themselves,unaided,
a blessing and a curse.
i get love and tips about love
and tips
about love
and it serves as a paradox because they're given in hopes that i never have to use them with anyone else.

i am learning to disseminate
or
i am going to take the time out to disseminate

so i too can be stuck in whatever way i choose.
i choose.

This is all blanketed and I'm sorry
there are so many messages to so many people I'm trying to get out.

-M.

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